"You gave up way before I did" - He told me

He told me this,
It left me startled.

"Did I really?"

Almost a month now,
A month of believing that he gave up on me.
But,
tonight when he said that,
It really make me wonder,

"Did I really?"

Maybe I did.
Maybe I did, but I'm just not ready to said it like he did.
Maybe I did, because I know it's not right.
Maybe I did, because I was selfish.

I want love,
Hunger of love,
Wanting attention,
Chasing affection,

But I was too selfish,
To let anything be real.
At least not the way he wanted.

"See, I only make you sad. If you're with me, you're just going to be sad"

No, I'm not sad because you make me to.
I'm sad because,
I love you hard enough, I need to let you go.
I love you hard enough, I can't bare hurt you anymore.

Because,
To be honest,
And you're right,
I'm just not ready to be part of a temporary relationship.
The one you wish to be a long lasting one.

Because.
To be honest,
I've been into many,
I disbelieve many but marriage.
And you asked me to wait for two to three years,
But, you didn't trust me enough for me to do so.

And so,
Yes,
You're right,
I gave up way before you did.

"I'm sorry"
"You deserves someone better"

And I will never blame you for not choosing me.